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Tuesday, January 05, 2010

its 2010..

happy new year! its like 2010, but nothing much had changed since, it doesn't really felt like its a beginning of a new year... its still the same.. pretty much the same...

i wonder if i changed? for the worst or for the better?

i felt as if i am some fleeting ghost of the moment sometimes, like now, i am just wondering.

musing about last Wednesday night, about the stranger, what would happen otherwise, if i had accepted the dance? or rather, was pushed to instead of being protected.

i had many habits, now he is one of the many habits, will it be some temporary thing as it were those times before? what am i doing? practically wasting my time? or am i unknowingly leaving crumbs behind? the more time i spent on him, the more i will be disillusioned, aren't i?
which is the case for many times, but not. definitely not, so there must be something then...
but not thinking about it. not. (:

time suddenly felt like a capital to me, i am not investing it properly. time is running out? at least that is, before the big 2.

anyways i was glad, really glad for the friends who remained with me through this tiring year which has seemed to past so quickly.
those special few who i really hope to keep for life. hahhaha. :) :)
i hope so, i do hope so..
more to it, more to just meeting up.

i wouldn't want to think much about death, i hope.
so, i should make full use of my youth now! :d
do what others do?? party like how others did? and i want to be worldly! enough to match up, to impress, and to be impressed.

i want to see the world.

Money, i am going to earn it, big time, once i start, i hope it won't stop, six thousand to save and MORE so that i could spent? within 6 months?

Skills- ohh baby, i learn to drive last year, i want to speak. GERMAN i guess.. (and jap, or french.. ) and malay! learn to play some instrument???

Sports- i have always though it would be so awesome to do a marathon, but my stamina have definitely dropped sooo much, so much. lol. and the one pull up? forget it mannnn. but yeah.. hopefully hopefully... surf and sweat 2011? hahah, when i do find some partner..

talking about that, yes, i am not hooking myself up until i get the darn braces off. HAHAH, so stop day dreaming. but it doesn't means anything otherwise.

Contribute- perhaps, i should do more CIP, OCIP would be definitely good, but maybe.. i am thinking of going local first, like something on my own.. go to old folks home some time? that day caroling at st teresa's home did inspired me to go interact with the folks there..

Right now, i want to go to the beach again! like play proper volley, hopefully i can play it properly too.. hahah.. chill out.

so this year is gonna be.. WORK HARD, PLAY HARD, i want to live my life to the fullest.

note: sumi jo's concert in april! :):)i don't want to miss another classic.